Adolescence will always be a ferocious period, just ending a clueless teenage, passing through a happy nonage. Traveling through it will be somewhat similar to minor warmth creeping into a silent night, which is attached to the cold hands of a nap.
Now I find myself travelling through unknown paths, underneath my mind filled with dreams and ignorance, which gives me restless nights of solitude.
I am trying to find a reason, why ………….. ?
No, it’s weird that I can’t find one.
Recognizing myself non-plussed, let me suppress these thoughts. For the nonce, nostalgic thoughts of some noumenon is pulling me front, as attracted to a sylph. My mind is swirling in purge of thoughts.
An anodyne for all unanswered problems has to be found. Still life continues, it’s going on, through memories, dreams, and a repertory of wishes.
I returned with a silent weep out without fulfilling them and presented it to the past.
But these experiences became a boon to me. I never presumed that, these drops of tear will rain on me as a source of rejuvenescence. And they raised me with an incentive, a pax for brotherhood.
With solicitous thoughts, I started walking in the path of solitude, as a rapparee.
A new journey of life begun _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.
Now I feel, I am a new man ………………
A fresh feeling is creeping on me ………..
Feels like, life remains for me ……………
A period of self-annihilation, self-abasement, self-abnegation, self-deception and self-delusion is ending. A new self-collected human with self knowledge and self purification is growing fastly.
Without any reason, I was suffocating my soul with impersonating solitude. The pain of heart was crawling inside to fill my eyes, to cry craven of self-reproach.
YES, it’s true that I made a great mistake. Does it mean that, I have to spoil my future as a victim in regretting thoughts about the incident ?
Is there anyone who hasn’t committed mistakes in life ?
Self-collected, self-disciplined persons will become vincible and makes vindicative ‘ karmas ’ in future, to stand one’s legs.
It’s legible that, I am not innocent enough that I can blame others for own mistakes. From time immemorial, according to illuminates, bad thoughts of mind results in immitigable instigation.
If your mind is filled with good thoughts, no one can make you do immoral things. Master your mind to acquire immaculateness as a mackerel-sky. Your help will make an immense difference. Don’t act as a maelstrom mad cap.
A virtue in mind can only admit own mistakes. Remorse comes from broad mindedness. To correct a mistake made, needs much more goodness at heart. Being a lotus-eater, I was fallen into the darkness of an uncertain future.
From lorn, the unadultered, unasked, unbiased loving of GOD almighty was the reason for my uprisal. Still it’s my univalent arbor, armour for life battle.
Now I recognize that, GOD has no religion. We can call him by any name we like. We can associate almighty to any religion.
An orphan crying due to hunger is GOD. Its affected by various discomforts, but got any medicament. It’s trembling due to cold, but hasn’t got any good clothes to have warmth. It has fear to sit alone, but doesn’t have any parents or family. I can’t ever love any other GOD, than this GOD. It doesn’t have barriers of any caste or religion. Anyone anywhere can believe, pray, worship this GOD.
Now let me travel to go in front of GOD. I must pray to forgive each and every mistakes made by me, knowingly or unknowingly. Let me pray to wash away every marred thought in mind and to bless me to lead a life of humaneness.
With closed eyes, at the hands of GOD almighty, I stand with a prayful mind.
…………..please fill my heart with the light of virtues and deeds………..
………….A light is expanding within mind…………..
It’s the rays of self-aggrandizement. A happy hunting ground is gleaming in my eyes.
Because of my mistakes, uncounted persons have suffered mind numbing restlessness. If I have to recover them from unhinged mind, I must ask for forgiveness, to each person. May be it make me feel a little awkwardness, still it mustn’t matter much. The heavy hearted mind can be lightened to a much amount.
Also if I forgive others for their dues, that made my mind depressed….then no heavier hearted………….. Weightless………… floating like a dry leaf here and there………….driven by a cool wind……..
Mind started showering……..of happiness…….peacefulness……..my eye started filling up……..and finally it formed a pleasant silence after a long rain.
I opened my eyes to this world, with a smile. The eyes of the persons, who had ever cared for me, is now wet. Through the gleaming tears in their eyes, I can see overwhelming love, care, pride, victory glittering.
This is it. I have fought back my way. Now it’s your chance. Enjoy fighting back. I can wait for you along with many of your well-wishers.
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